“HER” by Felicia Johnson Spin Off Novel “OK Danny Boy” Sample & Video Intro

“OK Danny Boy” by Felicia Johnson is a spin off of Felicia’s debut novel “HER”. “OK Danny Boy” is due to release in Summer 2016 during production of the book to film adaptation of “HER” the movie based on the novel by Felicia Johnson. Learn more about “HER” at http://www.herthebook.com and Felicia Johnson, Author and International Speaker at http://www.feliciajohnsonauthor.com.

OK, Danny Boy

By Felicia Johnson

Chapter 1

“My father probably would have killed my mother. Theresa probably would have killed herself, and I probably would have done it, too,” I say.

“Were you scared?” Kristen asks.

It is the first time anyone has ever asked me that question. I think about her question for a moment. I sit across the table from a girl who looks like she can break at any moment. I want to be careful because I have a feeling that if I say the wrong thing, look at her the wrong way, or even make an offensive noise, she will start crying. Although, at this very moment, I am holding in a serious gas bubble that wants to pop right out of my ass. I release it, silently. Relief. I don’t care anymore.

Kristen is a peculiar girl. She doesn’t seem to say much. Her emotional outbursts, dramatic facial expressions and bandaged wrists tell me a lot about her. She is broken, like most of us who are doing time in Bent Creek Hospital for various mental health issues. We are the lost and troubled teenagers with screwed up parents, a raw fetish for self-harming and sick regrets of our suicidal inclinations. It’s kind of like a messed up joke to think about how many times we fail each time we try to die, but we don’t really want to die. It feels like one more thing that we can’t seem to get right.

Kristen has scars up and down her arms and a frown that sticks to her face. When we first met, Kristen’s frown was the first feature I noticed. Janine introduced her to everyone on her first day. Kristen and Janine are roommates. We all have roommates. Unfortunately, even I had a roommate. His name was Rocky. He’s no longer here.

Patients at Bent Creek Hospital are separated into co-ed groups. The groups keep the numbers of jaded youth from growing too large against the smaller number of therapists and counselors who treat our mental health complexities. Their jobs are to shrink our minds from overwhelmed humans to zombified dust bunnies with state of the art coping mechanisms, new findings from studies of techniques that prove useful for young minds such as DBT and CBT along with the latest, shiny new drug. At least, that’s what I used to think about the system.

Right now, I’m off of meds. I can’t believe it. I can’t believe most of the things that I’ve seemed to overcome in the last few weeks. It seems as if the events that took place before I came into Bent Creek hospital happened years ago instead of weeks ago. That person who broke down and couldn’t cope with what had happened doesn’t seem like it was me. But it was me. If it wasn’t for Dr. Finch, Dr. Bent, Dr. Pelchat and people in my group like Janine, Kristen, Tai and believe it or not, even Rocky, I wouldn’t have noticed the difference in myself.

We were all together in Group One. It must be fate because all of us seem to have the same diagnosis of sorts. Diagnoses range from some form of depression, whether it’s Bi-Polar I or Bi-Polar II, mixed with something else; a dual diagnosis? While the other groups have their dissociative identities, hair eaters, schizophrenics and the demonically colorful personalities of the insane youth with sociopathic and psychopathic tendencies, our group seems to dwell right in the middle of those who don’t seem to fit just one single problem. We don’t have a problem. We have problems. Plural. Therefore, I was given a couple of diagnoses of Bipolar I (complete with manic episodes and Major Depression) and Obsessive Compulsive Disorder also known as OCD. Having to deal with that on top of having Juvenile Diabetes seemed to be enough to keep the medicine cabinet full at home.

Looking at Kristen is a lot different from when I look at Janine. Janine is obviously thin. She could be mistaken for a model except she has some major flaws that probably would keep her off of a runway. She isn’t naturally thin. I can tell that she makes herself that way, unhealthily. Dark purple pools circle the skin around her eyes like bruises. Janine tries to wear make up, but she has to put on so much to cover up her discolored skin. Her hair is long, but it is thinning. Her teeth and fingers are discolored from what I figure comes from when she makes herself throw up, if she eats anything. Her mood fluctuates frequently, especially after Dr. Cuvo gave up and disappeared. After he left, she and I grew closer. Janine is beautiful and angry.

Other people seem to see what they want to see in us. However, we know that we’re nothing at all like how we see ourselves. In an odd way, I see Janine as a lot like myself.

Kristen is a different story. She doesn’t cover up her physical flaws. She shows her bandages. She doesn’t even try to hide her face with her hair, always pulling her hair back in a ponytail, as if to make you look at her. Ironically, she doesn’t look anyone in the eyes. She opens and closes like a broken cabinet that won’t shut all of the way unless you slam it hard enough.

I can tell that she’s like the others. She sees something in me. She sees something in Janine. She sees something else within herself but whatever it is, she won’t let it go. I can see it too. It’s dark and I cannot define it. Kristen scares me and she intrigues me because, unlike Janine, she’s not easy to read or understand. She was difficult from the very start.

It seemed like Janine tried to help Kristen feel welcomed. She tried to include Kristen in our group. However, Janine had insisted that Kristen must have disliked us because when Kristen first arrived at Bent Creek, she wouldn’t talk to us, nor would she smile. Janine and I made a bet against each other. I bet Janine that Kristen would smile before the end of her first week at Bent Creek and Janine bet that she wouldn’t smile. Of course, I won that bet. Janine had to give me her evening snacks for a whole week after I had won the bet! Little did I know at the time, the loss of that bet wasn’t such a huge loss for Janine.

Nonetheless, it was hard work to get Kristen to smile. Eventually, she did smile. After the day that I made her smile, she started to open up more. It seemed to help since we were all in the same group. I didn’t want to give up on her. I tried to make her laugh and talk to us about why she is here at Bent Creek, but she seemed too sad to speak about it without getting upset.

On today, of all days, the day before I am scheduled to be released, this broken and attractively mysterious girl decides to open her mouth and have a real conversation with me. It seems like it’s completely unprovoked on my part! At least, I don’t think that I did anything to draw her attention to me.

I am working on a sketch quietly in the commons area on the Adolescent Ward. Drawing helps pass the time. Only one more day until I can go home with my mom and Mom-Mom. I don’t want to cause any trouble or lose my temper or let anything trigger me into having a manic episode again. All I can think about is how much I want to smoke a cigarette. I can’t wait until tomorrow! I even asked my mom to bring me a pack of Marlboro’s to the hospital so that as soon as I am free, I can take in what I have been craving for over a month!

I haven’t told anyone in my group that I am going home because I want to be as inconspicuous about it as I possibly can. I don’t want the others to feel badly and then start acting weird around me because I’m leaving.

I don’t know. Maybe Kristen sensed something in me that gave away my secret because she walked right up to the table where I am sitting and started talking to me. She surprised me because I was concentrating on drawing straight lines without shaking. I haven’t tried to draw since Rocky killed himself. That was a messed up time. Kristen was there, but she hasn’t asked me about it. It’s a good thing. I don’t want to think about it, nor talk about it anymore.

Honestly, I am not prepared to talk about any of this stuff. Really, I’m not ready to open up about what happened with my mom, my dad and Theresa. I’m ready to move past all of that. But Kristen has a way about her that I don’t understand. It is the mystery behind her sudden interest that pulls me in and moves me to want to talk to her. When she asked me if I was scared, I may have seemed to open up to her right away, but in my mind, it seemed to take a little more than minute for me to answer. I am thinking about what she asked and the fact that she is the first person who has asked me if was scared.

Kristen’s eyes glistens as she waits for me to speak. I replay her question in my mind.

“Were you scared?” Kristen asked.

When I think about it, I remember everything very clearly. From the moment that I knew that I was in love with her to my dad getting out of prison, and when my mom almost gave up on our family to Theresa’s suicide up to now, this very moment. Here I am, sitting across from Kristen. She’s the odd girl that spoke up. Kristen is the inscrutable girl that scared me and amazed me and who dared to ask me the question that no one, not even Dr. Finch, had ever asked me.

Was I scared?

Book Giveaway! Her by Felicia Johnson BPD Mental Health FREE

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“HER” by Felicia Johnson is in preproduction to become a movie! Here’s a giveaway to get the buzz going for the book to film adaptation. Visit http://www.herthebook.com to see the trailers. Good luck!

Goodreads Book Giveaway

Her by Felicia  Johnson


by Felicia Johnson

Giveaway ends June 16, 2015.

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Enter to Win

I’ve been nominated for Georgia Author of the Year (GAYA)!

This year is the 50th anniversary of the Georgia Author of the Year Awards (GAYA), the oldest literary award in the southeast. This year, 108 Georgia authors in 11 categories have been nominated! Click here for a full list of the nominees. (Note, if the links are not working it is because the GAYA sites are temporarily down. Refer to the release at the bottom of the post for more information.) My book has been nominated for the “First Novel” category. One winner and one finalist for each category will be announced at the GAYA ceremony on June 7, 2014 . The banquet and ceremony will be held on Saturday, June 7, at 6:00 p.m. in the Ballroom (room 400) of the Kennesaw State University Continuing Education Center, 3333 Busbee Drive, Kennesaw, Georgia.  KSU Center in Kennesaw, GA. If you are interested in attending, click here to register. I hope to see you at the banquet and ceremony! Please leave me a comment if you plan on attending so I can find you there! Johnson, Felicia_Nominee Flyer

Blog Tour: Her by Felicia Johnson – 5 Stars Review

Blog Tour: Her by Felicia Johnson – 5 Stars.

Her the Movie Dream Cast!


Her the book will soon be Her the movie, and here is the perfect dream cast of characters! Do you think they fit the part? Leave me your feedback!

Review from Writer’s Digest Self-Published e-Book Awards


Her by Felicia Johnson, Fiction

Judge, Writer’s Digest Self-Published e-Book Awards

Judges Commentary:

“Wow, this book is intense!  Mesmerizing.  Visceral.  The story is told as a first-person account of Kristin, a seventeen-year-old girl, whose life goes from being raised by a single mom her first few years, to becoming a family when her mom marries Jack and she becomes a big sister to their twins.  She has a best friend who she idolizes and seems to have caught the attention of a really cute boy, John.  But the happiness doesn’t last.

Kristin is unable to please her mother, who constantly finds fault and disapproves of whatever Kristin does or says, making her feel worthless and unloved. But that’s not the worst of it. Jack, in a drunken moment, makes an inappropriate advance to her. She tries to just avoid him, but then Jack starts spending time with Kristen’s brother, Nick, behind closed doors that seems off and Kristen does not want to believe what she is starting to suspect about what is going on.  As if that were not enough, it seems John is starting to have feelings for her best friend!  But it seems like Kristen is not like other kids her age –she is less able to cope and more easily overwhelmed that others, is there something wrong with HER?

The feelings of inadequacy, isolation, and confusion, plus the lack of control over any aspect of her life, causes her to take solace in self-mutilation (cutting), which requires more and deeper cutting to feel the release that it gives her. Then that terrible week she catches John and her best friend in a passionate embrace, and a couple of days later, has her worst fears confirmed about Jack and her brother. And it pushes her to take the ultimate control attempted suicide.  The story begins with that, and her past comes out in flashbacks as the story unwinds.  She is sent to a short-term mental health facility and most of the book is about that time, how she works through her issues.

The author does an amazing job of engaging the reader from the first moment, and the feelings she is able to evoke are visceral and intense. I think so many young people could relate to these feelings of separation, isolation, loss, not feeling loved, and lack of acceptance, even with feelings of not knowing how they fit in to their family.  What I think is most powerful is how the author presents mental health treatment as important and necessary and with such a positive, realistic manner, dispelling the negative stigma and encouraging young people to reach out when things get overwhelming.  She in no way whitewashes the feelings of Kristen or the other patients; their feelings are validated but not in an enabling way at all.

The supporting characters are believable and well-developed. She does a good job of providing insight to the fact that you can’t change the people around you or your past, but you can make different/better choices and learn to cope and gain strength within yourself to deal with the hand you’re dealt.  I just was blown away by the intensity of the book, it is clear that the author has either lived this or worked with people that have, because there is a ring of truth and authenticity that just shines.

The book is ultimately a tale of redemption, empowerment and overcoming not in a happily ever after way that isn’t believable, but in a realistic and credible way.  There are a few very minor construction and spacing issues, but they are minimal.  The book is hard to read because of the subject matter, but extremely well done.  I think this book could really reach some young people at a time when they may be at a crossroad, and give them pause before they try a permanent solution to their temporary situation.  I will look forward to see the author’s next book.  Great job!

Blog Stops for Wednesday January 15th

Here are the stops for today’s Dreams Come True Promotions! Thank you again  to all those participating.

Island Lovelies

Cajun Book Lover


Bare Naked Words

Kimerin’s Confessions of a Bibliophile

Cu’s EBook Giveaways

Blog Tour Stops for January 14!

Blog stops for the Dreams Come True Promotions! Are you having fun yet?

My Fictional Boyfriend & Book Whore Page

Rachael Orman’s Writing

 Rockin’ The Bookshelf

 Anny Books

Blog Tour Links for 1/12/14

Life Becomes Me – https://www.facebook.com/permalink.php?story_fbid=201522313384251&id=494013537348515&stream_ref=10

Once Upon a Dream – https://www.facebook.com/permalink.php?story_fbid=201522290050920&id=602061779843222&stream_ref=10

One Girls Book Addiciton – https://www.facebook.com/permalink.php?story_fbid=569423293147040&id=351670418301893&stream_ref=10

 Sassy Girl Books – https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=270560319768482&set=a.225321574292357.1073741830.218080298349818&type=1&stream_ref=10

Shelly’s Book Corner – http://shellysbookblog.wordpress.com/2014/01/12/book-tour-her-by-felicia-johnson/

Black Friday Giveaway!

Kindle with BowAfter you’ve finished your turkey and woken up from your tryptophan nap, log on and download the HER e-book for FREE! You will get this inspirational novel of BPD and survival for free all day Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. Get it as an early Christmas present for yourself or even a loved one who may be struggling with Borderline Personality Disorder.

Jump on over to http://www.amazon.com/Her-ebook/dp/B00D64V0F6 (America only; other links listed below) and get your free e-copy of Her starting Friday.  For extra brownie points, leave me a review on Amazon.com with your experience. I would love to hear your thoughts!



(This is the complete list of Amazon links by country where they are available)

http://www.amazon.com/Her-ebook/dp/B00D64V0F6 US

http://www.amazon.co.uk/Her-ebook/dp/B00D64V0F6 UK

http://www.amazon.au/Her-ebook/dp/B00D64V0F6  Australia

http://www.amazon.com.mx/Her-ebook/dp/B00D64V0F6 Mexico

http://www.amazon.ca/Her-ebook/dp/B00D64V0F6 Canada

http://www.amazon.in/Her-ebook/dp/B00D64V0F6 India

http://www.amazon.br/Her-ebook/dp/B00D64V0F6 Brazil
http://www.amazon.de/Her-ebook/dp/B00D64V0F6 Denmark

http://www.amazon.fr/Her-ebook/dp/B00D64V0F6 France

http://www.amazon.es/Her-ebook/dp/B00D64V0F6 Spain

http://www.amazon.it/Her-ebook/dp/B00D64V0F6 Italy

http://www.amazon.jp/Her-ebook/dp/B00D64V0F6 Japan